brixta's Blog

Alright, well first off, I kind of forgot about this site for a while. ._. I know, shame on me. But what the hell am I to do? Now here's where things get all messed up, I'm the admin of the Facebook page Church, and while I've ran the page, I've made a lot of great and wonderful friends. One of which hasn't been seen or heard from in nearly a week. And the rest of us admins are really worried that something might have happened to him. Then there's his roommate, who's been in the hospital in critical condition since last Sunday...as of now, we're all unsure of if she'll make it, but we continue to hope for the best. As for the friend who's gone missing, all that I'd like for him to do is just go home and be with his roommate, she really needs his support. And this next part is a message directed towards them both: Doc and O'Malley, the rest of us are behind you every step of the way. We keep you guys in our thoughts and our hearts. We'd all be there with you in person, but unfortunately distance prevents us from doing so. We love you guys! Doc, we wish for your safe return, and O'Malley, we pray that you have a speedy recovery. 

Writing...I haven't really been able to bring myself to do any since the death of my dearest friend, Tabby. But I can't let that stop me from what's one of my few escapes from the pain that I feel sometimes...

But to get back to where I was before she passed away, I'm going to pick back up on my series "Let Me Be Your Escape", a Toby "TOBUSCUS" Turner fanfiction that's got 38 chapters so far.

I just feel that my life isn't complete without me writing something.

Needless to say, my cat Tabby, was put to sleep yesterday morning. I miss her like crazy, but she's now in a better place.

Needless to say, my cat Tabby, was put to sleep yesterday morning. I miss her like crazy, but she's now in a better place.

Needless to say, my cat Tabby, was put to sleep yesterday morning. I miss her like crazy, but she's now in a better place.

Needless to say, my cat Tabby, was put to sleep yesterday morning. I miss her like crazy, but she's now in a better place.

My heart's silently been breaking since I learned yesterday, that my cat, Tabby, may not be here in a week...I really don't want to lose her...and if I could have one wish granted...it would be for me to have another lifetime to spend with her.

 

"Burning, spin, fire
Bioware
EA
Spaceships flew, but one's out of fuel.
Emergency land,
Let the giant little girl help you.
Brace yourself, giant little girl's got you.
The ladybug goes off to turn on the song.
Girl gets up to chase the
music loving ladybug lands on a flower.
Chase the bug away.
Insects can't land on these flowers,
she stands up for humanity.
If this is all in her imagination,
her parents are awesome.
And messed up.
Robot-Insect-Aliens
(not to be confused with ladybugs)
Shoot at the ground.
Dead people upside down.
Buildings fall.
Robo-zombies let down.
Robotic zombie with an LED lit bellybutton
gets shot in the head.
Push the girl ahead.
Don't turn the spot light on!
Now he's blinded,
and there's a laser beam
that he should probably see, too late,
shoulder massage of death.
Laser beam of death
makes explosions of death.
For every zombie that you kill
in front of you
There's one behind you with a
shoulder massage of death.
On the bright side, they're free.
On the dark side, they're deadly.
Deep tissue.
Flash back to a sunflower field
where it had begun.
Then something blots out the sun.
It's the first of the
Robot-Insect-Aliens
(not to be confused with ladybugs)
That shoot at the ground.
When you chased that ladybug
It probably angered all the
insect lifeforms around.
Now we'll fade to black
while the insect leaders
start to burn everything down....
Toy that started this,
and now Shepard is pissed.
Robot zombies, looking evil,
see you watching.
Girl looks scared, guy looks unphased.
He walks ahead
and gets his shoulder weapon ready.
Sunflowers haven't seen the sun.
You should wear helmets.
But then they couldn't see
all the faces that you're making
when you kill 'em with EXPLOSIONS!
Your foot.
Bullets, Omni Uppercut,
Normandy, Seth Green,
Omni lowercut, more bullets
TAKE!
Don't massage my shoulders
or I'll EARTH you
in the spaceships flying
BACK
ATTACK!
What the hell is that?
Don't let it give you a shoulder
Mass Effect 3
Available now"

"Save your tears
for the day
when our pain is far behind
on your feet
come with me
we are soldiers stand or die

Save your fears
take your place
save them for the judgement day
fast and free
follow me
time to make the sacrifice
we rise or fall"


These are some of the strongest lyrics that I've ever come across, and it's true. You should only cry after you get done with what you've set out to do. And whether you win or lose, you need to risk everything, you need to face the things that you're afraid of, and that you need to show others that you know what's best for you.

 


This is me, doing what I do best, and standing up against SOPA and PIPA!

 

I've been obsessed with singing the song above, it's been a favorite of mine for years. And it just calms me so much! I never get tired of it, and part of that might be tied in with the meaning of the lyrics.

http://www.animelyrics.com/anime/tsubasachronicle/amrita.htm

But I just thought that I'd share this song. It's so peaceful, beautiful, and just so wonderful!

I'm getting so tired of rude YouTubers! I post videos up onto my channel, videos of things I like to do!

I mainly upload videos of gameplays, and I end up getting comments like the following:

"you aint no pewdiepie"

"what is FPS...............this vid dont know it"

And people end up disliking my videos just because they think that I'm trying to be PewDiePie....to hell I am! Yes, PewDiePie does inspire me to make my playthroughs, but does that automatically go to mean that I want my recording style to be exactly like his?! No!

In his videos he swears, misses the obvious.

With me I DON'T swear, I notice things quickly in the game, and I'm seriously just trying to be me! And whenever I do something for Youtube that I enjoy, some ass hole has to come along and ruin it for me....Another example was a few months ago I was recording vlogs and someone had to come and post the following comments:

"Stop making so long videos no1 watches them no1 even cares what ur saying"

"I only disliked this video because ur ugly as fuck"

And this happens every time I find something enjoyable to do for YouTube....It's about to the point where I'm no longer wanting to really care at all about my YouTube channel....And I'm tired of people putting me down.....After all, I keep to myself, and I don't bug people, I don't just randomly dislike videos, I only dislike it if the quality is terrible, and I've maybe even only did that only once or twice.

Well I guess that's all I've got to rant about....

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Okay, so I got a new laptop at Best Buy yesterday. :) It's an HP Pavilion g4, with a Dual-Core processor.

It's so much better than my old Acer! :D

I absolutely love this computer!  And I did the set up for it all by myself! :D

This song says it all:

"What if it makes you sad at me?
And what if it makes you laugh now but you cry as you fall asleep?
And what if it takes your breath
And you can't hardly breathe?
And what if it makes the last sound be the very best sound?

What if what I want makes you sad at me?
And is it all my fault or can I fix it please?
Cause you know that I’m always all for you
Cause you know that I’m always all for you

What if it makes you lose faith in me?
What if makes you question every moment you cannot see?
And what if it makes you crash
And you can’t find the key?
What if it makes you ask how you could let it all go?

What if what I want makes you sad at me?
And is it all my fault or can I fix it please?
Cause you know that I’m always all for you
Cause you know that I’m always all for you

And if this be our last conversation
If this be the last time that we speak for awhile
Don’t lose hope and don’t let go
Cause you should know

If it makes you sad
If it makes you sad at me
Then it’s all my fault and let me fix it please
Cause you know that I’m always all for you
Cause you know that I’m always all for you

What if what I want makes you sad at me?
And if its all my fault then let me fix it please
Cause you know that I’m always all for you
Cause you know that I’m always all for you

I am all for you"



 

All that I want now, is a new grapics card for my laptop! :)

Colored pencils break and get sharpened to a nub, I found a better game to replace the DDR game, I can hopefully win a TOBUSCUS shirt, and I've still got the built in mic in my laptop.

But I want, a graphic card! :)

Not just any graphic card, but either a ATI Radeon X1000 or a GeForce 6 graphics card! And I can get one of them for just $30 to $50! :)

So, my 21st birthday is in exactly 1 month! WHEW! :) So excited! And I've got a small birthday wish list prepared:

• A box of 36 count Crayola Colored Pencils (Pretty weird for a 21 year old to want colored pencils, but I draw and my peach colored pencil is literally down to nothing but a little nub)
• Dance Dance Revolution X2 (I'd like to complete my DDR X series with the sequel)
• Turquoise TOBUSCUS shirt (A BIG MAYBE)
• Dance Dance Revolution Bundle
• Venus Versus Virus Omnibus volume 2 (I absolutely loved Omnibus volume 1 of this series)
• A new recording mic (A DEFINITE MUST!)

And that's pretty much it. :)

But, I guess that you can just learn a lot about a person, just by looking at their birthday wish list.

I'm:

a. Creative because I want the colored pencils,
b. Also a child at heart because I want the colored pencils at the age of 21,
c. Into exercising for wanting dance games,
d. Somewhat Conservative for saying that the more expensive item would be a maybe, because it cost $21
e. Into reading, because of the VVV Omnibus manga volume!
f. A voice actress, I need a good quality mic to do my work.

But yeah! :D Gonna go dance some more!

HELL YEAH!!! WHEEEW!!!


Sorry, don't know where that came from!

Okay, so I've been watching my 3rd play through of the game Amnesia: The Dark Descent on YouTube.

I've watched:

-TobyGames play through
-GoldGloveTV play through
-CinnamonToastKen play through (Currently Watching)

And I've been wanting to make an Amnesia fan-fiction that takes place in current dates. I've been wanting to do this for some time now, but I just don't have the willpower to do so. XD

But the game is so terrifying that it has been known to make grown men cry and pee all over their keyboards.....Okay....not really, but.....TRANSITION!!!

Wow, I'm really in a Toby mood today. Still haven't gotten a response from him, but eh, it's cool. Wasn't really even expecting to get one, but it would've been nice. But whatever. I still love him, and will continue to watch his videos. :)

Let's see.....As for the fanfiction, I stayed up until 3:00 last night doing research on the game....and wrote down 4 pages of information on things that I'd like to include.

Daniel and Alexander will be long dead though. But they will be mentioned. :P

Have I actually typed anything of real importance? No? GOOD!

Latah peeps! BOOOOOOP!!!